This week, a week that I had gone through my super worst issue in my life! I was struggling strongly in my heart, was still thinking should I share this out. End up I'd made my decision to share partially of the incident, as a warning to my close friends around since my blog is only acknowledged by my close one.
Tuesday, we were invited to attend so call friend's friend birthday party. High class area with good service and DJ. People attended mostly fucking rich. The flows were normal as we had fun playing with poker, pool, sing-k, and alcoholic drinks were served. Well, I don't really like to drink, so I'd chosen to have only beer with my babe. Punishment of losers were to drink, we were trying not to drink too much, and when someone served us coffee, it actually flied us to the moon!
Well, here comes the problem I think. Something is wrong with the coffee, I doubt! The other girls were super good in drinking, and they continue with their Whiskey. Only my dear and I, we had the coffee, and we're still feeling glad that we could actually have coffee instead of alcohol drinks. People around keep toasting our cups, and I am brought out by S to avoid from being toasted. We then enjoy with our pool session beside.
Things went weird. I start to feel dizzy! Herrmm, what's wrong with me? Is it too long I have not been drinking? But it was only beer! And I did not even finish half of the cup of the beer! I can't even concentrate to hit the balls. I end up sitting beside and passed my Q to others to replace me. I reeled to the seats beside and take a rest. Well, seriously weird! My vision suddenly just like as shown in the movie! Things that I was seeing are all tearing into pairs. Means I can see DOUBLE of you standing front of me! OMFG!
Thank god my babe quickly came and looked for me and dragged me to the washroom. She was just at the right point of time! If she came later a bit, I can't be imagining what is going to happen next. She got shocked that I was squinting my eyes while looking at her. She then claimed that our drinks might be spiked by someone! as she used to drink a lot and won't get dizzy that fast. I was asked to vomit out as much as I could, and warm water was later on brought to me by my babes herself! I really don't know who somemore that I could trust at the point of time, other than her. Really thanks to her a lot.
I was really in my "fantasy" world, and thanks for her warm remind all the moment so that I would back to the reality world. My memory become very short, as I could forgot things that just happen in a seconds before.
She was forcing herself to be conscious as she was a victim too, until she can't stand for it, finally we left and went home. Thank god it's my time to get a little conscious and forced myself to stand still until I'm home. First thing ever while I was still conscious I called AC to informed that we're home safe. But I knew I can't really talk in a normal way as I kept repeating my words and mumbling, so it's better for him to come and have a look, I added on.
Thank god they came. I finally relaxed myself, and I am strongly been affected by the ecstasy. It turned worst after I had trying so hard to be conscious and then finally relaxed. I then start to have hallucination! Damn. I can just looking at you and hear you talking, but I can't even understand what are you trying to say. I can see you sitting at my left, another you sitting at my right! FML! It doesn't feel good at all!! DAMN IT! Being super sensitive to sounds too! I can suddenly feel that I am dreaming.
Next day was a bad one. Whole day I don't have any appetite. Ate only Milo and porridge for the whole day. Forced to attend class as I don't want to skip it. The lecturer was walking left and right in the class, and I had a sudden feel of throwing something to him and ask him stop moving! It was making me even feeling super dizzy! Thank god I was still able to control my own will. Wasting my time to attend class as I hardly can understand what is he talking about. Body keep shivering, and both hands feel so numb! It's like I can't feel my both hand at all.
My whole body hardly could coordinate with my brain. Even when I washed my face, I want to close my eyes when I splashed with the water, and, I FORGOT TO CLOSE my eyes ==". I tend to react super obtuse. Need time to answer one's simple question. It's like the hangover of the alcohol, and is hundred times WORST than it!
Fuck it that I am still having the hangover feel even until now. It is going to be a week! Still feeling a bit dizzy. Body immunity went so weak and I end up falling sick. Flu, headache, sore throat, whole body feel so strengthless. A bit depress, but I don't even know what am I depressing for! Arghhh! Now it's even worst as my sensation of my whole body is a bit numb! It's like I'm feeling itchy, but when I scratch it, I can't feel my hand scratching on it, and the itchiness did not get relieved.
Please let me get rid of this feeling now! I am feeling so sick but I dare not eat any of the panadol, worrying that it might adverse the effect. I AM JUST THE VICTIM! Why can't just STOP IT?!
Was working for Shiseido from Fri to Sat. Don't really enjoy the job as we need to hit some quota. Was still in a weak and blur condition, and thank god I manage to stand for it. Sunday working with my MsVivianC at KLGCC for Stars Charity golf tournament. And it's our pleasure to see our Deputy Prime Minister to tee-off! Worked for so many golf event before, and this is the only biggest and highest class golf course that I had ever seen! Lots of the business big shot, CEO or directors of Digi, Maxis, GAB, Prudential and more were participating. It was an easy job for us and it was super relaxing :D
To me, I had bought a super big lesson. It was quite a long time we did not went for any party, and now this shit thing happened. Thank god we girls are safe and nothing happened on that day. If really something were to happen, I really don't know how to face my ownself. I am being super disappointed with my ownself seriously, as I was supposed to be the one who should protect my babe. But now I got her into this shit along. I am just a useless one. Damn it.
I am feeling super grateful as we had gone through so many issues along. Thank god for presenting me a BEST bestie in the world. Really appreciate it. Thanks a lot for being aside whenever I need you. Mwaahhhh~~~! Sister forever ^^
