Recover Fast Pls my QUEEN~

Last Friday and Saturday I was so lucky to have random jobs offer. But continuously 2 days working for 2 jobs per day is a bit tiring. Thank god most of the jobs don’t require a pair of smooth legs. My cut is recovering, but it is still obvious.

Sharon’s birthday was at 18^th, but she had her early celebration on last Sunday. Her mum and aunts had prepared lots of delicious food and drinks. Simple gathering and dinner session at her house. She is a blissful girl, with the pamper of the both brothers. Her brothers made her 2 cakes, and they are way nicer than the bakery shop seriously! I love the Chocolate ice-cream cake the most ;) After the celebration, we went to chilled at Murni in USJ9 before back home.

MsVivianC was staying overnight at my dorm after the birthday celebration. We both again chatted till the late night. That night, we talked a lot. Discussed about my story too! She was asking whether do I feel regret for not being active when the both of us were still into each other. Yes, I do, but what to do, it is already pass, nothing can change the fact. She then shared me her story about Her and Gong. She proposed, want me to write down everything in my heart, and she’ll post it to HIM on behalf of me. Shit man, what to write..! She then pushed me my handphone, offering me another alternative by sending him a sms.

I was amazed by her courage that she had in the past to fight for her love one, and they were so lovely after the incident! I told Vv that I had made my 2 first moves, which is during the Christmas and New Year, I should be stopping all the nonsense now. She then claimed that that was consider as festive greetings, and I should take another try now. My heart shakes, and end up I sent him a message for the 3^rd time. Well, as expected, I got no reply from him.

Second day, I left my lappy in USJ and back to KL. No movies, no music, I was about to die of boredness. Suddenly I received call from my mum, claimed that their car battery went die of after their visit to the night market. Well, something for me to do now, I took the key and planned to rush there after call. My dad then said that we don’t have the Jump-starter! SHIT! In such an urgent period, I was thinking who is staying right beside or nearby! The nearest, Ohh Ya!! YX! I called, but he doesn’t have the tools too. Who’s the next? ZY! He’s not at home! GOSHH! Who’s the next then….! Luckily my dad managed to found one in the store room when I was thinking who to call again. LOL.

Back home again nothing to do. HY then smsed and asked for Yumcha. Hmm, good also, rather than stay at home. There I went yumcha with him for that night.

Tuesday was a bored day. My mum is having fever, and couldn’t fetch me from my granny house to the shop. I was totally doing nothing for the whole morning to noon, FIRST TIME. End up around 5pm, I walked to shop as no one could give me a ride. I need to depart at 6pm for my dance class. JL smsed me, claimed that we have not met up for longs. It was more than half a year I think, LOL. Since I am dancing in Kepong and he is staying there, we then meet up after his gym and my dance class. We had some dessert there.

During the whole dessert time, I was being scolded by him. Claimed that I should be the cheerful one but not because of a guy and turn into this situation. He said lots of stuffs, analyzed and broke everything down. Asking me to stop being “sei chin lan da”. Even only 3 sms that I had sent, it is still considered, he claimed. I tried to fight back, but I failed. He got most of the points. Well, it’s time not to be so stubborn on all the things. I should not be affected just because of a video that he had posted which there has got nothing to do with me. And I have got my answer with his ignorance of my message. Stop being the one who is annoying, should leave him a peace world.

Just like HY said, let the nature take it course. It is not easy to let go, and it takes time. Just miss him if I really do, don’t need to restrict myself. Until the right day has come, I shall have let go automatically. Maybe until the day he has got girlfriend, or another story, just let it be. I should not be affected by any of his action. If he could not offer a full sincere heart as last time, there is no point for any other expectation.

Just got to realize the lyrics of this old song express whatever that in my heart. The lyric is actually quite sad and meaningful, but she could express it in a light, simple and relaxing way. “If one day I have backed to the original me, will you still give me a glance?” “Miss you would be my hobby.” “Miss you so much, but I have no guts to express it, as I am afraid I will be saying something wrong.” Well, I should be just like this song. Stay happy in everything, even miss him should be in a cheerful way. Stop expecting, just Miss him as I like in a happier way J

Someone told me something today. He asked me to enjoy the bitterness of my current feelings, because it is a romantic one, and the one that I will never have it for much in life. The feeling is such pain because of we really see it serious in the relationship. So just enjoy it. One day where the feeling of bitterness has gone, you gonna feel something missing and empty, and start to miss the feeling again J I buy his word ^^