Porcupines are Thorny to Protect Themselves from Getting Hurt

I am a Porcupine.

It's freaking hurt. From nothing someone pull me into such a deep hole. And when I am already into it, one try to push me out.

Too much of worries. Worry that you can't give me this, you can't give me that. Worry about your body condition. To be honest, I don't care about all that. What I want is just YOU! Even how my Queen disagree for this, I am already well-prepared. Because I am seriously into you.

Finally I walked off from the sorrow in my heart, stepped out from the phobia that I was having for so long. And now, I am hiding back under my warm shelter again.

The conversation really hurts. It seems like you are pushing me away, or trying to get me half hanging. If never thought that you are able to give me happiness, then what is those courtship that is more than half year? To the matter of confront, you choose to shun.

Everyone would easily got into something that is unpredictable. I would even get involved in an accident and just go away like this! Life is always unpredictable. Why should we get restricted by all the nonsense reason?

Maybe those are just an excuse. Maybe you have got other hidden reasons. Maybe and maybe. Maybe just as what Vv said, falling into me is uncontrollable, but the moment of deciding make him have the super low-esteem. If really so, then just keep your love to yourself and stop all the courtship. Stop pulling me in and pushing me away.

I don't like to be half way hanging. I tend to get hurts more in the end if everything did not work out. So I am sorry that I can't do as what you had told me yesterday. Even now, my heart already shatter into pieces.

Don't ask me whether have I found it or not. The matter now is just whether are you ready for it. No point of pushing.

I had put down my dignity, and when I look back on myself, I looked so cheap. Is like I am begging one to be with me, even I did not do it obviously.

If you think things won't work out, please leave me, even how much you feel you love. I am sorry to be selfish and thorny. I had enough of hurts in love. Don't message me or contact me for this moment. I seriously need months to get recovered and be alone. I am forcing myself not to miss you, as this is freaking hard.

Sorry for the following unreplied message.


My life seems to be fated that my love is always hurts. Full with disappointment. In term of love, my life sucks.

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