Money Not Enough!
I am working like a WORKAHOLIC, and seriously I need a big rest. Lots of issues happened recently, and I am kinda pissed off with all these in my life.
Monday interviews were all postpone =.= But then i choose to chill at Vivian's house. CD came and fetched us and we had our dinner at Murni. Finally i get to taste the Roti Alladin! Everytime been to Murni when it was late night, and i can't eat supper! Finally~ And it tastes SO DELICIOUS! =D Around 5pm, we depart and left Subang. Vivian was driving CD's car and follow my Blackie's back all along the way to my house. Then 2 of them chilled at my house, and we were crapping lots of nonsense with the TRUE and Dare but no DARE. =)
Tuesday, early in the morning i read my message and got last minute notification of job cancellation. So I slept until I woke up myself. Goh then called and ask for lunch. Well, since I have got no where to go, a casual lunch will just do. He did proposed for movie, but I just need a BIG rest. Lunch at Ole-Ole Bali Mont Kiara. I again thought on having casual lunch only nearby my house. End up still we went to Mont Kiara. Is kinda big turn off. Our food just served on the table not more than 5 minutes, and I received a call! My agent last minute has got job for me. And wants me to rush to the venue within one hour time! GOSHHH! I was not with make-up with my hair tied-up, was wearing only shorts and Sandals! And she wants me to rush there just in an hour?? I rejected her and been shooted by her too. She insisted me to reach there on time! Sigh. Okay then, end up Goh and I finished our food and just left. I went home and changed to my long jeans and wear heels. I did not make up due to time is inadequate. Goh sent me there and waited for me few hours until I finish work. I was so sorry about that. Luckily I have got my RM500 paid in cash right after working. So I spend him back Zanmai Sushi.
At night Goh dropped me to Vivian's house and left. We then chilled at Canai again. Someone has addicted to the SiSha feel~ haha! Total of 4 of us there, it was totally so damn crazy and fun! Is like I can forget all my stress at the point of time! We CRAPPED too much and out of the logic! 3 Indian boys, blue horse, with eye but no eye lid, dead camel in the dessert, blar blar blar.. Shit man.. All gone haywire! Haha, You guys meant a lot to me in my life, seriously =)
Then Vivian's turn to overnight at my house that night. I sent her for training for the next day. Planned to online in any cafe with wifi while waiting for her. End up the training was in Sg Buluh! And in a blur condition, all of us got the job pula. Haha! Thanks for Vivian for this, also to THX =)
And finally, here's my bad luck. I am all the time so blur. I dropped my Coach bag and I don't know where I dropped it. Everything inside gone. Well, that's not my main conscious. What Am I worry about is just the bag! My mum gave me that, and how am I gonna explain to her about the lost of the bag? She gonna spank me I think! Sigh.. I was really so moody and felt like crying actually. Tears flowing out non-stop in my heart. I wanted to cry but I can't. Vivian's expressions and worries makes me feel bad, I don't want people around me to feel sad because of my careless. So I just hold my tears. It's my own fault, so I need to bare it myself but not to troublesome others. I am seriously VERY VERY DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN~
I have got no cash at all, and I need to work for the next day. Borrowed RM50 from Vivian and bought some important make-up stuff. Luckily my job for the next day pay us on the spot. And here I got few hundreds to spend for my following days. ATM card and debit card lost. All my cash just frozen. Thanks for everyone who cares for me, I really appreciate it a lot. Some offer to buy me another Coach as birthday present, some offer to buy it for me and take it as he lent the money to me.. Thanks for all the offer, but seriously I am not sad because I lost it, it is just the matter how to face my mum.. And I am not really into Coach actually. SIGH..
Job yesterday was fun indeed. Is an International Golf event, and there were lots of foreigner. And ALL of them are millionaire there. That is the reason they are sometimes being a bit unrespect to us. But somehow there are lots of big bosses, and we have got lots of chances to mingle around and get ourselves some good chances in the future. Westports, the international company was offering job offers to ladies of 18-22 yrs old. How good if I can join such a reputable company once I am graduate! Too bad i still have 3 years more to go.. We can actually win the best usherette prize, but the other groups cheat by combining their Vote! Damn it man! Or else we could get the 1K in Cash too! Sigh.. Forget it.
Lots of unhappiness bothering me. I suddenly just feel like calming myself and stay alone. Don't feel like talking much when I think of all these. Now I am earning my own money. I stop giving burden to my family. I studied so hard to get scholarship and hoping by this would lighten up my mum's burden. I thought I have already help a lot! But yesterday morning, she told me she is paying RM2k for our insurance. And recently she spent a lot on my grandpa due to grandpa is having cancer. She told me her expenses is very high nowadays. Well, she was just trying to grumble and did not meant anything, but deep in my heart in makes me feel so bad!
After the day I had dropped my purse, I dare not tell her that I have got no cash at all and I am without license! Responsibilities still is there, I still drive and picked my bro after he finished school. Big fear was there due to there are too many blocks everywhere recently. And I will not able to bribe due to I don't have any single cents with me! Even report to police about my stuff lost, I don't have any single cents to pay for the report fee, luckily Vivian borrowed it to me! Sigh.. At night, my mum told me that my bro need a pair of Basketball shoes. She ask me to sponsor him. Well, I have got no cash at all, not even any single penny. But still I smile to my mum and ask her not to worry about that, I will get him a pairs. Deep in my heart I am kinda worry, where to get the cash as my bro is going for the basketball tournament next week! I don't feel like borrowing from someone as I feel sorry to borrow. Luckily with the job yesterday I got my salary paid by cash! Basketball shoes gonna cost me about RM100-150 after discount from my friend. Thanks a lot to him as he helped me to get the discount.
Early in the morning I received a call from my friend. She is sicks and need to find a replacement. RM200 to work from 10am-6pm. It's already 8am something, sigh. I am too exhausted due to whole day working for yesterday, and the last minute job I really can't turn up on time! Sigh.. Forget it again then =(
Just online in the Cyber and I checked my mail. There's a brand ambassador's interview TODAY at 1.45PM! Ans when I am reading the mail, it is already 2pm =.= WTH.. My shitty line at home just a big stop for me for getting jobs! Arghhhhhh! WHY IS ALL THESE HAPPENING?? Everything around me just slipped away! Chances too! I don't deserve it that's why all these are happening?? Sighhhh
Everything lost. i don't have my own room, and baby keep playing my stuff and misplace it. Even my friend's stuff is lost due to they just simply remove it. Sigh! I am so so so UNHAPPY. Only jobs can flush all my worries temporally.
I feel like buying a house in Subang. A low cost flat that I can afford. I can afford the down payment, but monthly installment I will need to work very hard for it in the future. Am I able to maintain my income after my college starts? At least 1k per month? Some advised me not to give myself commitment so early, and I might not having a good return in the investment. It's not easy to rent out I know, and it will be very troublesome. Since I am going to stay there for another 3 years, so I am thinking it is only worth for me to pay for the installment rather than paying the rental to others. But am I able to do so? House loan is not easy to get! How how how how how? Argghhh
Blackie's life is always BLACK
